owhhh!! now i know -_-


i always was thinking, y cant a couple be friend after the break
or
a guy woo the girl but get rejected then the guy wont contact the girl again
or
the gril woo the guy but get rejected then the girl wot contact the guy again.

LOL! now i know la! haha
they don wan those memory to come back.
lol
i'm soooo stupid arh?

haha but i don know y about 90% or more ppl will like this le. but i'm the odd 1.
maybe thats y terri wont wanna be close wif me again la! ahyia!


in love, there's always pain. when there's pain there's hope.

hmmmm i wonder y i nv ask ANY girl to patch befor le. but only terri le. i plan to 1 year later after we break then patch which is 2 more day away. but! i don think we are in a good timing now le. so hmm maybe awhile more. lets see loh. don just change my life and walk away le!

ARGHGGG!G!G!G!G

why are u like that!?


STRESSSSSSSSSSS LAHHHHHHHH!!


today, again?!
work ended at 10.
i told terri i will wait at her at the staff entrance there after work.
she reply " err.. No need to wait for me la :) "

then i was thinking hmm
i reply " nvm la any way i so free. go home alone also sian. must well go home tgt. "
then at 10.43pm, she reply nvm la. u go first .. i meeting my friend later too "
like wa lao! izzit the 1st reply already wanna like turn me away liao?

arhhh!! really v angry leh! i stand nothing in her eye lo

then i v angry reply " wa lao. ahyia nvm. "

grrr!! now, 11.40pm, she reply " sorry ah " -_-
she like don really care le. then who's her that " friend " very important meh?
i waited for u like 40 min then LAST MIN u say u wanna meet friend. might as well tell me 1st?
then i don have to be so heart broken.

its like i wanna meet her liao then last min ppl call her then she don care me liao. go wif the friends.
wad is this man?
maybe 1 day u would just say " is u ownself wanna wait for me de ma. i told u go ler "
like nothing is wrong arh? sound like i ownself wanna tio bastard de rite?
but THINK pls!!
( just take 1 min of your time to think )
if u are in my shoe how!?
think as if " u LOVE some 1 so much that u can just wait for them after work no matter how long is it. ( i bet u will wait no matter how long if u really love her/him ) by the time u are waiting, u will be VERY happy. cos u know u going to meet her/he already. but just 1 sec only. 1 SEC ONLY! she or he suddenly tell u he/she meeting other friend. then don care about u liao HOW WILL U FEEL?"


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one more thing, she even told her just know de friend i'm just a friend. about 2 years ago, we used to msg every time. almost every min. ( mostly i'll start the morning msg de la, if i late msg her, then she will msg me like " heyhey good morning! =D "
we wont don reply each other de. unless we like fall asleep and some stuff lo.


there was once, she suddenly nv reply me once. then i about about 5 days i nv msg her. ( cos of that 1 nv reply la. i don know y also ) then her friend told me she asking y suddenly i nv msg her or some thing. and that was 1 week plus befor we stead/get tgt.

on the 5th day she msg me and ask me wad i doing all those. after few days, we get gtg.
MAYBE that 5 day i nv msg her then she found out she kinda like me?

any way like this i don even stand a chance to be her good friend?
her friend keep asking "he your best friend la? "
the she was like " no la. friend only "
"best friend la?"
"friend only."

nothing much only la. but it just prove that i cant even be her best friend?

am i that bad? seriously.
i don know =/

i just feel like tmr don meet her. then go meet other girl to work. and try to bum in to her. let her see and maybe she will feel the slight cut .
(but the girl got bf all those de la. . just 1 of my old friend =x)
just wanna make her abit jealous or some thing. see will she change. izzit a good idea? hmmm
better not ba. LOL

even if u make me hate u, i'll still love u.

i'll hate u but still love u.



i cant stand to love other girl le..
its too hard
even if i can, i wont wanna choose to love other girl too =/

T_T

its the 1st day of my privt blog. =/

hmmm grrrr ..

in me, there's a big ball of anger right now. seriously damn sian lo like this T_T

i was v happy that terri could work at taka wif me. i was like bagging god to let her in .

soo.. she got it, she got the job, today was her 1st day..

i waited for her at 4pm to 5pm lol!! break time ma. tot she can come at 4. but suddenly she got held up on the cashier thing.

i stand at 1 place like a guard lo =/ ppl see me then ask me where is where all those. lame la!

after work, i waited for terri from 9.40 till 10.20+ around 10.30 lo
wanted to bring her to eat dinner and stuff de. cos she didnt had launch . ( she was too shy to eat alot ) LOL. hmm after she came out of the work place, she got a call from a friend. her friend say that he was near by. at orchard mrt. then her friend wanna bring her home -_- .

its like wa lao! then she go meet him then i go home lo =/

on my trip home, i was very disappointed. seriously. kinda angry, but not at her.
some how i feed like " if there's any 1 wanna punk wif me, i wanna paunch that person face till he bleed jia lat jia lat " lol! thats wad i feel la . but nah! NO FIGHTING !!!

sian, i just now msg her when i leave and now also heaven reply le. =/ should be wif friend or on the way home or some thing ba.

around 6 more day and its like 1 year i no steady ler it mean terri and me broke up 1 year already =/


ahyia! tmr terri work ler. i got off. hmmm hope she do tc of her self arh! later nv eat again. -_-

anyway,
kinda disappointed la today. but nvm. the anger will be all over soon =)

hello! i'm working liao! been 2 day!
today is my 2nd day!
i'm working at takashimaya 2nd floor Ladies' Fashion Department. do come visit =)
who wan come? call me or sms me le! let me know. then i go for my break time to meet up =DD
but its only 1h =(
leg damn pain la. lol keep standing =/

eating alone v bored la! haha

made 3 new friend! 2 ytd 1 today.
1 chinese lady age 24. she do tok to me about her family stuff.
1 malay guy 20. crap wif lame stuff. almost like me.
1 malay girl age 21 but she kinda like my age la lols always play play de. get along well =) the 1st 1h jiiu like good friend liao. tok cock wif her and the malay guy alot.

learn alot ba? i also write it down on a note book =) haha so any thing i can read through. now adays i'm gonna have a partner. but SOON i'll be alone SIAN! now training me ma.

any way going ride ba. tmr off, woot!
oh ya! hate the pack mrt sia
got 1 guy friend inside liao then i infront of him, he chiong in pushing me behide damn! luckly i got it. wa from behide chiong in sia LOL any way nvm! forgive and forget =X
I'LL JUST DO THIS NEXT TIME! EH KIM HENG, CHIONG ARH!!!!


=)

damn! i wanaa upload pic! but it seem stuck or the uploader spoil ler? wa lao! upload soon =0

agh! all i know is my mum cant be trusted! fucking lier.
she made a promise and she break it!
she's going to destroy my youth .

if i would have rmb this till i'm a adult, i WILL NEVER feed her . as in give her money to spend

mcb mcb mcb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


i cant stand it laaa!!!!!!!!!! hate lier la!!


u nv should have say it. BITCH!

and thats me


i look gay.

http://www.tacmovie.com/

thats 1 of the most sad story i ever read. really bring tears down thinking about it.

I WANNA CRY LIAOOOOO T_T


nv heard me saying or writing this befor uh? wa really sad arh!

IMIPTELTD modelling! are u finding for info from yahool/google?
lols!


( sry , for ppl who are finding stuff from the net )
haha. lame shit got some modelling agency . ask me don know stuff lo and take my number lols. heard that they earn 2.50 from taking a number? lols heard it from the web =) they ask me go try modelling and stuff.
but! i go through the net and heard about the imipteltd stuff. they say its a scammer or something lo. haha. don know wad to say if they call. lols!

some time i just hate being so fucking nice and friendly to everyone while they just take avantage of me. FUCK!


grrr. hate it la! diu sia.
treat every 1 normal la fuck.
not only saying me. it go the same to saying other ppl too.