Saturday, November 04, 2006
haiz.. another bad day.. stay at hm till around 7 + meet daddy take money.. wanted to meet jasmine and her sister de. but at the end i wan to do some thing else.. but it just turn out bad..
take a cab down to her work place wait for her, not even 10 min i think jiiu take a cab back.. then in kinda bad mood and the fucking cab driver still like wanner piss me.. talk till so rude.. like his paying me.. HELLOOO??? i paying u, bitch!
y is the rain keep coming for me? really v sad lo. feel like dieing right now. tok also not even 10 min.. tot she would be happy or some thing when i'm there.. but turn out she like don feel like seeing me.. maybe cos i did't tell her i was going.. haiz.. i super HATE and SCARED of rejection.. and this is the 1st time i give ANYONE a present..(soft toy & Etc) i try my best tell my self not to shy or wad.. just give it to her.. tot at least will be happy. maybe as a friend present?? but turn out bad.. she don wan it.. she like say she own me alot of thing all that and thats y she don wan it.. then like she don wan it.. she wan me to keep it.. but its aint her fault... maybe she feel bad ba? from now on, i don think i gonner give anyone any present .. its just too scard la.. =(
maybe i'm just too selfish.
u r not to blame, i'm just disappointed of my expectations
And i'm not stopping here in life / 11:27 PM
